My three year old asked me that question today when I went to check on him when he took himself to the bathroom.
He’s a trip.
He had been gone awhile, he was quiet, and his new thing is “I can do it!” while he picks out his clothes, “helps” with the dishes (by throwing everything in reach into a pot filled with water), or gets himself an apple…. 6 times while taking a bite out of each, naturally. It couldn’t be a privacy issue for the kid that fights me every.single.time I tell him to put his pants back on, right? But as I stood there confirming that he was indeed still on the potty and preparing to wait in the wings until he needed me to help him finish up, I couldn’t help but think to myself, “Who am I? Why am I here?”
How did I get here? How did I get to the point that my biggest contribution to the world in this moment is waiting to wipe some kid’s bum? So I’ll start there.
I was in college when I met my army husband over 12 years ago, and within the year, we were married. Even though it might not look like it, I would consider myself way more calculated then spontaneous. My husband is the fun one. When I decide to do something, though, I go for it. Completely. I don’t look back, and I don’t obsess over anyone else’s opinion. No worries though, we’re still making it 😂
I finished school, and got right into a job in my field that was the perfect intro to my life plan. I figured kids would come, but after being told bio babies were probably not going to happen for me, we planned to adopt… many years down the road. Fast forward a few years, we moved to Germany and like many army wives, I started volunteering all the time for all the things. Eventually, that led me to a referral for my absolute dream job. When I read the posting, I really felt like they knew me… so sweet! They didn’t and it was a highly competitive process, but I got it! It was all I dreamed of and more. Fast paced, challenging, altruistic, and it made me feel pretty accomplished! On top of that, I was launching my journey into essential oils.
Then my biologically impossible baby showed up one day. Just when you think you’ve got it all figured out, right? Bless my heart. I was in total shock, but we were ecstatic. Life was about to change in a big way. Not my career though. That was on lock. I couldn’t have another baby anyway…
A couple years later after exactly zero full nights of sleep, a million hours of baby wearing, my husband leaving the army, the daily grind of daycare drop offs, and too many pumping sessions to count, impossible baby #2 was on the way! God has a sense of humor when we make plans 😂 After lots of months, 37 hours of labor, and one perfect birth experience, he was in our arms. Don’t worry, career was still on lock… for a few more weeks.
My big kid was still going to daycare and I was still on leave with my bitty baby when my husband got word that he would be transferred to South Korea – another surprise – and it was going to happen fast!
I suddenly found myself returning to work earlier than expected to wrap up my projects and clean out my desk, and we were gone 6 weeks later! It was a hot mess.
Within a few short months, I’ve flipped from mom of one working full time outside the home in Europe to stay at home mom of two small children on the other side of the world in Asia. I’ve flipped into new roles professionally as a mompreneur supporting birthing women, and sharing my knowledge and love of essential oils. I get to educate and mentor in both roles, which I love.
The grass is always greener, right? I’m finding out the seeds of truth in that all the time.
That’s how I got here. Waiting in the hallway to wipe a bum. Like millions of other moms before me. It’s actually like a beautiful sisterhood maybe?
And I’m here in this writing space to share my musings with all of you. I’ll share too many kid pictures on Instagram. I’ll share oily info and tips. I’ll share little tidbits about the awesomeness of birthing women. I’ll talk about my journey to a more eco friendly footprint. I’ll show you our adventures. I’ll invite you in. Hopefully we find some common ground and you like it here. Thanks for stopping by!